Have you ever started a new diet and thought this is it? This is the one that will change it all. Only a few months to later completely stray from it. Feeling guilty, defeated and ashamed.
Weight Watchers? Tried it multiple times.
Low Carb? Tried it.
No Carb? Sadly yes, I lived without carbs for way too long.
Whole 30? You mean whole 12? Cause that’s all I did
Juice Cleanses? Hated it.
Yep, I tried them all. I even went vegan for 6 months. I have tried all the diets and none of them worked. I thought for so long that there was something wrong with me. That I was the one who was failing.
But you know what? I didn’t fail, the diets failed me because that’s what they are designed to do. Our bodies cannot withstand the stress and deprivation that diets put us through.
And before you say well you just didn’t try hard enough. Look, trust me when I say, I would have done anything to be a smaller size than I was. There was no one more disciplined and dedicated to health and wellness than me. In fact, I probably know more than most people about food. It was literally all I thought about.
What more could I cut out, how much more could I work out. When could I have my “cheat” meal.” I was obsessed and what did doctors and society tell me? Not only good job, keep it up. But also, do more, weigh less. Your blood work came back normal but your weight is too high.
So off I went, to shrink myself more. But do you know what I found at that smaller size? I still wasn’t small enough. And I was even more obsessed than ever about my weight because I HAD to stay at that smaller size. Because the problem wasn’t my size, the problem was the way I viewed my size and my body in general. And my body? It was never meant to look like that.
Check out this video by the Association for Size Diversity and Health (ASDAH)
What I found is that no matter what I looked like on the outside, body image was an inside job. Sure, if you had asked me, I would have said I was losing weight “for my health” because I had not yet learned the principles of Health at Every Size. I had not done the internal work of uncorrelating health and weight. And in a culture that lives and breathes fatphobia. How could I possibly know there was another way? How could I possibly think there was another option?
But there is another way friends, and I’m here to help you find freedom and peace with your body.
Ready to get started? Be sure to grab my Mat Talk cards that will help snap you out of a bad body image day.
You can also check out my podcast, We’re Not Weighting for weekly episodes on mindset, body image and to hear stories of women who are not waiting to be a certain size, but showing up exactly as they are.
Want more? Click here to schedule a free 20 minute consultation.